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it's nt fair
August 17, 2006 2:09 AM
can someone stop me from watching dramas?
why it doesn't happen on me?
Everyone has their owns problems, i have mine too.
when i have mine, who can i confront to ? who can lend mi a listening ear? who can help mi solve my problem? who can console me? who is willing to understand mi?
i have to entertain those who have problems, who can entertain me? seriously i can say none.
i've to be the clown and make them feel happier, i've to be the rubbish bin and collect their unhappiness. who can collect mine ?
i look happy doesn't mean i'm happy.
i have problems that god cant help too.
i have so much problems that i just kept it with me.
i have to carry a burden, when i have problems, my bf cannot help mi, my friend cannot help mi
when my bf goes to army, i have to face it myself, i have to face his problems, i have to help him do his job as a grandson, i have to help him like a maid, i have to help him pay his bills, i have to help him collect his pay, i have to help him call up starhub when his line got cut off, i have to help him collect his rubbish stuff that he left behind. i have to help him entertain his bunch of friends, i have to help attend his friend's party.
i wonder why i have to do this ALL BY MYSELF
my life is like a dead routine, i don't have exciting programmes waiting for mi during the weekends, i don't have beautiful memories that i can think of.
all i can think of is study waiting for weekends to come and moive and dinner, and monday comes again.
maybe someday i will be gone. i don't wan to be the entertain, i don't wan to be a maid, i don't wan to be a rubbish bin!!!
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